It's funny how when I have something else that I am supposed to be doing, like writing 20+ pages of research paper, I finally find the time to change my desktop background on my computer, update my web browser, prettify my background on twitter, catch up on facebook, and resurrect my blog, among other successful time-wasting ventures...
My snowboarding season is over and besides being terribly depressed at the thought of waiting months to get back on my board, I've found I suddenly have a lot more free time again. Many of my mountain friends have gone off in search of summer adventures and the rest, well, I guess I'm only cool enough to hang out with when I'm driving to the mountain. ;)
So after finals week is officially over (and I'm not just procrastinating anymore), I'll be back for good. I'll try and clean up unnecessary old posts, maybe redesign the blog, catch you up on my life, and hunker down and read all that I've missed in the last few months. Maybe one day I'll get a routine down and I will be able to keep on top of these things better. We'll see anyway...
In the meantime, I've hidden a lot of the old posts in this blog. I don't really want to get rid of them, because I feel like I would be doing a disservice to myself somehow if i did that. Still, I am not that person anymore and I don't want my depressing past weighing me or any potential new readers down. Things have changed and I am moving right on forward as we all should be. <3
Over the last month or so I have been toying with the idea of resurrecting this blog. Part of me wants to start a brand new one simply because the me that started this blog is not the me I am today, at all. But I guess it is the past that has made the new me who I am today, and I really ought to recognize that. Skimming over my older entries, I am amazed that I was ever with J in the first place, that I was ever even married at all. I feel so far removed from the life I had a couple of years ago. I don't really know how to describe just how it is that I feel differently now - am I older? wiser? stronger? more realistic? I'm not entirely sure. Maybe some of all of those things.
Since I last updated this blog, my crazy summer came to an end and I emerged from the ashes with a few new life lessons. Not long after, I randomly met a stranger at a bar who ended up teaching me so much more about myself in the following four months than he will probably ever know. I have discovered new hobbies and made new friends. I have worked, I have gone to school, I have chosen different roads to travel towards my goals. I have good days and I have bad days, but most importantly: I am living.
Once again I've forgotten about my blog. It seems like a whole lifetime has happened since I last posted. I'm trying to settle into my new life now though, and I'd really like to share it. Maybe in good time... we'll see. ;)
I hope everyone is doing well. <3
